i'm not sure what to write. what i've been doing, how i've been feeling, things i've been thinking??? i was in wisconsin for my cousin's funeral all week. i wrote a post once about seeing real joy on a person's face, about how incredible that was. this week i saw tragedy, pain, despair, and utter anguish on someone's face. i've never seen emotional pain like i saw on my dead cousin's fiance's face this week. i've seen what it looks like on a person's face when their reason for living has been taken from them. i am not sure how you survive that. much is going on in my head and if you really know me then i'm sure you'll hear lots about all of it. i just don't feel like sitting in front of a computer and typing it all.

psst......: i did get my new compaq ipaq PDA this week, but since i was gone i haven't played with it yet. at least i have a new cool toy to look foward to playing with.