I felt like I should write something here today, but well, i'm tired. i coughed all day again today and my back is killing me from it. boy, if anyone actually reads this i bet they are entralled with my whinning on and on. i did several places today, and i applied for another two jobs, but i also spent...$58 + 26 + 20 + 25 on food and medicine. i don'e know the total and don't want to know. whatever the total it was more money i can't afford to spend but had to.

i am beginning to realize why alicia felt the way she did when she couldn't find work and why she never wanted to talk about it or anything else for that matter. I'm still staying positive, trying to, but this cough thing has me feeling pretty low. plus i just keep having no luck finding any work at all. i just don't get it. no matter where i apply its like doors keep getting slammed in my face. no call backs, no emails, no letters, nothing. just nothing. its frustrating. i need to be doing something. perhaps i'll go to b&n tomorrow before i have to meet michelle and i'll lose myself in some books, get out of my problems and my world and get some perspective.

all this coughing, i just don't even want to be around people. i can't talk without constantly coughing, and i know how wretched that sounds and how it hurts your ears to hear it and i don't want to subject people to that so i stay alone. and now's the time when i was feeling that i wanted to be around people. i'm surely being tested.

that's it. time for bed.

"there is no such thing as a bad doughnut." -homer j. simpson